Today seems to be a good day. I haven’t gotten ahold of Mom yet, but if she hasn’t called me, everything’s still fine.
I got up this morning, brushed my teeth, snuggled with Mouse, then looked around my once clean house and wondered what happened. So today will be spent picking up and some light cleaning. Then the pool, of course, its 95 degrees and cloudless, perfect pool weather!
Oh, pictures of my hike up to the top of Harney Peak! It’s the highest peak east of the Rockies, and it was gorgeous. From our parking spot, it was a 7 mile round trip. I really want to go back and do it again, I’m hooked on hiking, too bad I live in a flat area. Oh well, reason for travel!
Hey Kevin! It was my second honeymoon. We just celebrated 10 years. Can you imagine someone actually putting up with me for 10 years? I should have him evaluated.
Bree
Well contratulations! Our 10 year in this October! Time sure does fly by.
I guess today Grandma is very weak, Mom said she hadn’t woken up yet and it was 2pm! Yesterday she didn’t eat at all. It’s close. My uncle is going there tomorrow, he hasn’t gone yet, at least she’ll get to see all her kids. Maybe that’s what she’s waiting for. Mom hasn’t been taking very good care of herself during all of this. Apparently my brothers have told her that they’re putting her in a home as soon as Grandma dies. Goofballs. Though she could probably use a week or two at a spa.
This weekend we pulled everything out of our kitchen cupboard, drawers, pantry, and extra storage. Cleaned the surfaces, then put it all away better. It looks a lot better, and makes more sense. We’ve been in this house for 4 years, and we’re still finding better ways to do things. It’s fun.
Bree, I’ve been absent for most of the past month but what comes through from your journal is how focused and well adjusted you are. You deserve a pat on the back(side) for hanging tough with your daughter even though your heart is with your mother and grandmother. What a blessing that you did get time to spend with them even though watching a loved one move closer and closer to death is very difficult. I think that watching helps prepare us.
Your mother will need to recover afterwards. If she gets sick, that will be rather typical.
Thank you, Joan. Knowing I’m going to lose her is so hard, and hurts so badly. But knowing she’s in pain and is not living like she would want to (laying in a bed being aware 5-15 minutes a day isn’t living), is so much worse.
Talked to Mom today, Grandma is doing better. My uncle should be there this afternoon sometime, and she seems to understand that and is happy.
That walk you did looks amazing, I wish we had (physical) mountains to climb over here! I remember climbing a mountain with school once, and it was so rewarding, and the view was unbelievable.
Did you get to see your uncle when he came over? It’s always a comfort to have the whole family together at difficult times, somehow it lifts the weight a little. I think you’re very brave and I’m so impressed at your positive attitude.
Thank you, Nienke. I didn’t get to see my uncle, I had already returned home. It’s a 15 hour drive non-stop back. I actually haven’t seen him in 12 years. But I am very happy he got to see Grandma before she dies. It needed to be. Grandma is still holding on, doing about the same as before.
It’s a shame that it’s so far away. From the posts I read it sounds like you get to see grandma a lot though.
She’s very lucky to have such a great family.
I stayed there for a week, then went on my second honeymoon, and stopped back in to see her about a month ago. I hadn’t been back there for a year and a half before that. But I used to talk to her daily on the phone. When I was a kid, I’d spend the entire summer with her—every summer. It was a wonderful time.
My back is feeling better (I tweaked it Saturday and took yesterday as a rest day instead of running), and yet I’m still not running. I think I’m worried about failing again. Last time I’d gotten up to running 4.5 miles, my knee started hurting and took months to recover. This week is 4 miles, so I’m close to the point I was at before. But I will run, and I will succeed. And if my body protests again, I will simply adjust my goal, and then failure isn’t a possibility.
