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Today has been a crazy day. Grandma is doing worse, sleeping more, talks for maybe 30 seconds before it wears her out and she sleeps again. I called her church today and requested a prayer. The pastor came by and gave her communion, she said most of the Lord’s Prayer before she just had to listen. She seemed to really be happy of the visit. Right before that, hospice was here, and then Hubby and the girls got here. Busy time.
I met up with my best friend from kindergarten and beyond (we’re both just happening to be back here), had lunch (both of our families), went to the park, it was wonderful. She has the most beautiful children. And all the kids got along so well. Then we came back here, regrouped, tried to get Mom out of the house (no luck), and went for a hike by the river on the dells. Gorgeous. And of course, I forgot my camera. I’ll have to go back tomorrow. The girls should be thoroughly worn out. Hubby and the girls headed up to his mom’s farm.
Grandma gave Skeeter a great big hug, Mouse was too timid, but Grandma knew she was here. I had to hold her (kid’s almost as big as me) so Grandma could see her. It was enough.
Crying a bit more today. I pray the end is near, she’s so uncomfortable. She’s confused a lot of the time she’s awake, and that’s not much at all.
Thank you all for being here for me. This is the hardest loss I have gone through. I’m accepting of it, the hard part now is watching her be in pain.
Remember that your Grandma would want you to be happy and to celebrate the time you had together. She is moving on to the next stage, but she will always be with you in your heart.
I’m so glad to hear your honesty, and your moments with her!
I spent hours with my day, a day before he died a couple of years ago… those moments are soooooo special to me now, I can still remember with such clarity!
We are here for you Bree! It’s hard, we know it… but we know you.... and what you have inside you… the strength.....
but it’s okay to cry.... enjoy each moment you have......
Dear Bree,
I am praying today for you, your grandmother, and your family. I know how difficult it is to watch a loved one go through this. My dad died of pancreatic cancer some years ago and I remember those last days. As hard as these times are, rejoice in the moments that you have when she knows you are there with her. I will keep you all in my prayers. God will continue to be with you all, and especially through these difficult times.
Thank you, everyone, Scott, Paula, Emmi, Tom, Kris. Yesterday was hard. She had vertigo and pain. She was crying out for the Lord to take her home, and talking to someone we couldn’t see. At 3am, she was lucid enough to have an amazing goodbye with me. She said she was being led into the light of dawn and beyond and that they were roasting a goose for her. I got to tell her how much I’d miss her, how much I love her, how I feel so blessed to have had her as my grandma. She was able to hear and understand, and for that I’m grateful.
Leaving this morning is going to be very hard. Within the next hour I have to say goodbye, I’m sure for the last time, and leave to meet up with my hubby and girls. And whose taking me? My ex, and Skeeter’s father. He’s picking her up and it was the most convenient thing. But weird.
Thank you for all the prayers and good thoughts. This community is amazing, and has been a rock for me to lean on. I’ll post again when I can, won’t have internet for about a week. Hubby and I are going on our second honeymoon to the Black Hills, not sure I should, but I need to. There’s nothing more I can really do here, except be with Mom. And my uncle will be checking in daily with her. My brothers live close by, so that’s good.
I’ll check in, and I’m going to climb that mountain! Grandma would be proud.
OK, so what am I doing posting half an hour after I was supposed to be on my way to my hubby and kids? Well, shockingly enough Skeeter’s father, we’ll call him POS (you can guess what that stands for) cancelled. I had to call my 12 year old daughter and tell her that her POS father wasn’t coming and taking her camping. Apparently his water pump on his truck “just” went out as he was leaving to pick me up. Just like his kitchen pipe burst “just” when he was supposed to come to Tennessee and get her for the summer.
Gonna go run now, I need to get rid of some pent up anger.
Not quit the twilight zone you thought it was going to be. Does that throw a rench into your plans for this upcoming week? Give Skeeter an extra hug she probably needs it about right now.
Take a deep breath and go run off some of that frustration. You’ll feel better once there is some distance behind you.
I’m back! My little brother gave me a ride half way (to his house), then Hubby picked me up and away we went. POS called and said he’d come and get Skeeter the next day. So we postponed leaving until that happened. And Skeeter got to ride a horse a few times, so she was definitely OK.
The honeymoon was great! The climb up Harney Peak was fun for one of us. We had a great time, I’d forgotten how much I loved living out there.
Mouse was very happy to see us, this was the longest she’s ever been away from me. She did really well, but was happy we were back.
Grandma is still alive, she’s hit a plateau in her health, this could last a while. On our way home we stopped in to see her again.
Got up yesterday at 3:30am to start driving so we could get the dogs from the resort they were at. We made it, but it was still a 13 hour drive. Ugh.
Thanks, its really good to be back. Of course I’ve had to fight the kids and Hubby for computer time, but we all have things to do online. I’m attempting to get used to this humidity again. It’s horrible, I walk outside and my glasses fog up immediately. Blech.
Hang in there Bree...I’ve been where you are now with Grandma. Time takes care of everything. Reading your threads it’s cool how you are keeping it together while living through this experience. Stay strong!
