Ramblings while searching for the re-ignite button.....
I cannot believe two weeks have gone by without me posting or even visiting the forum. I see that a few of the folks that started when I did have also been MIA. Hitting the mark of 40 or so days seems to be the hurdle for many, most especially me. I am still listening to the podcasts and reading the new daily boost emails. The treadmill has not seen my feet in ten days.

Not sure what I want to feel nor what I will commit to. The motivational topics run through my mind..."Life Begins when you move”, “Take a step and repeat”..blah, blah, blah.... I feel physically tired and mentally just not up for the movement. I cannot say that life got in the way. It feels more like diminished returns; putting in an extraordinary amount of movement this past summer coupled with healthy eating and only losing one pound completely annihilated any exuberance for daily movement.

I injured both of my arms - suffering for weeks now with tennis elbow condition in both arms probably from lifting too heavy of weights repeatedly. First time I ever had this and it sure is painful. I am wearing braces/support bands on both arms and it certainly has limited my physical abilities in my day to day activities.

In my work and personal situation negotiations - still nothing is settled. This is tiring me out mentally too. Not putting out my resume, only window shopping for potential new career positions.

Not sure where I am in my 100 day challenge - It would be about day 60 plus, but I honestly have not been consistent in the past 20 or so days. I really don’t feel stuck or sorry for myself - I think I am just getting to the point of acceptance that maybe I am never going to be a consistent mover. I just don’t seem to want it enough at this point.

EZ you should never accept that you’re not a mover because that is simply not true! You’re a trooper for even starting this challenge, and having a rut is not a bad thing.

sorry to hear about your arms, try to lift lighter weights later. For now you can maybe just walk on the treadmill and do some calisthenics. It doesn’t take much, even 5 min a day is a good start!

EZ, lots of us get disappointed when we work so hard and don’t lose weight. I mentioned in your 100 days thread that I didn’t lose weight during the summer (or I gained it back on since school started ), but truthfully I am not exercising because I want to lose weight now. It is more because exercise makes me feel great and increases my confidence.

I know it’s hard to get into an exercise routine and make it a habit when you’re physically and mentally drained. Try to reevaluate your goals, and make it your priority to do some kind of exercise a day. Even one situp is good!

EZ I know you want to lose weight, but you have to work at it, it doesn’t just come. Tweaking your diet may help you lose weight too, doesn’t always have to be exercise.

Please don’t give up on yourself! I have gone through a period last year where I just felt like I had no mental strength left, but I just kept on going with my life. Right now school is draining my mental energy away again, but I’m still moving even if it’s a little bit.

EZ hope your arms get better soon and that you start exercising again! We would really miss you if stop your challenge!

Christina great points, all are very valid. EZ sometimes it can be really hard, trust me we have all been there. Weight is just a number, do not be fooled! EZ, I work out 3 to 4 hours a day, I do not lose weight, I lose water weight and it comes back. Friday I weighed in at 254 this morning when I went to the gym I weighed myself and weighed in at 264, over the course of 1 day my weight shot up 10 lbs, I have been going through this for about 3 months,but I have noticed some things, my body is far more toned than it used to be, I feel pretty good.If I listened to Mr.Scale all the time I wouldn’t continue,I know it’s hard but just give it another chance.

EZmorph - 22 September 2007 04:45 AM

I really don’t feel stuck or sorry for myself - I think I am just getting to the point of acceptance that maybe I am never going to be a consistent mover. I just don’t seem to want it enough at this point.

I know Scott uses “How badly do I want it?” a lot, and I feel as you do, that I must not want it enough since nothing is happening. 

But I keep moving.  I have committed to classes and that commitment to someone other than myself, keeps me going.

I know it is hard, but please stay with the forum, no matter how much or how little you move.

This is a critical part of your journey. We all hit it, when it just doesn’t seem worth the effort, and it would be so easy to give up. But how easy is that life? How did you feel when you weren’t doing something good for yourself, eating too much, how easy was that feeling to live with? I remember my days like that, it was horrible, I gave up precious years loathing myself and using food as a punishment. Food that was meant to be enjoyed, I used as a weapon for my self hatred. And maybe it wouldn’t be so bad if we only treated ourselves poorly, but we know better. I was starting to let that nastiness spill over into everything. I could fake it, but deep inside I wanted everyone to pay for my misery.

No, that life wasn’t easy. This one isn’t easy either, but it’s so much more rewarding. I like myself, I believe in myself, and most important, I don’t want to be anyone else but me. And if I’m going to put the energy out there anyway, it may as well be in a better life. I owe that to me.

Sorry if none of this applies to you, but your post brought back a flood of emotions. Just do a little, a few sit ups, a couple push ups, anything. Walk around the block. The weight will fall off, the compliments will start to flood in, but none of that will compare to the fact that you did it. You. And no one can take that from you.

Bree

Sorry it has taken me so long to check in.  I needed to think, to really ask myself if I had it in me to change my life/health.

Amazing responses from all of you.  Thanks for the boosts, personal shares and perspectives, they do help so much.  They make me think and stay aware - focusing on me.

I am not a quitter.  I have found my sneakers and put my Polar HR back on.  Slowly getting myself back into motion. 

It is great to have all of you here to help.

YAY EZ I’m so happy for you! It’s hard to sometimes see through all the clutter in the mind and look at your ultimate goals, but you have done just that! Now EZ get moving and show us what you’re made of! Keep on going we’re here to help you EZ!

It’s your time to MORPH!

Good for you EZ I knew you weren’t a quitter!

Hey, EZ, how’s it going?

Bree

Hello there,
I am back. Tomorrow morning starts my second time around with the 100 Day Challenge. I finished the first 100 day challenge on Thursday this week. I stopped posting at the end of September cause all I had in me was whining, complaining and disappointment - I just could not turn it around. Too much life in the way. So I went within myself to really examine just what do I want here - did I want to be a healthy thin person with no limitations or have I been imprisoning myself for so long with obesity that I am petrified of the freedom from it. I also finally ended a financial personal matter that was in negotiation mode for way too long.

In my absence from posting I did remain moving, albeit at a slow pace; no increasing speed, incline or heart rate - just simple moving. My food was for the most part balanced. No weight gain nor loss. I kept daily listening to MTM a priority. I have lost what I gained in my fitness level. That can be recovered fairly quickly I would think with the return to the 60 minute LSB starting tomorrow.

I have a plan. Daily 60 LSB on treadmill and 3 sets of AB work. My food will not be from any program - I know what works. I need to lose 100 pounds and I am giving myself one year to accomplish that goal.
I have raised two children as a divorced mom through many tough situations. It is time for me to make something with the next chapter of my life. I do not want to waddle through my days - I want to sprint and be the best me I can be.

Looking forward to Day 1, again.

I’m glad to see you’re back. I can relate to a lot of what you’ve been saying. Sometimes we just need to pause and think about why we are doing this fitness thing and what we really want from it.

Just celebrated my birthday on 12/10 which made me ask myself “How do you want to feel?” Cannot imagine where that question came from....Listening to all the shows daily since I dropped off the planet of health. Utter horror this morning as I stepped onto the scale - been avoiding that piece of equipment as well as the treadmill since early November. Nothing like SHOCK to wake up the mind. I truly am a food addict -I use food and lots of it to numb out everything. I gained 20 lbs. over a one month period of time. Enough of the drama.

Once again, it is all about taking that first step and repeating - this is paramount and I suppose I am a sloooow learner. This morning getting on that scale was a huge change in how my day starts. I prepared oatmeal, blueberries and 1/2 banana for my breakfast-instead of the #6 combo with a large creamed coffee at the Dunkin Donuts drive-thru. Setting the course in the right direction today. I have to bring myself back to the reality of what is and not take the easier path of heading further into the badlands over the holidays. Look out dust on the treadmill -it is time to clean up!  Off now to the morning treadmill workout.

Grateful to have this forum and you folks who understand.

Welcome back, EZ! Happy birthday, did you have a wonderful celebration? I hope so, you deserve only happiness.

Sorry to hear about the shock, I’ve been there (30 pound gain in a month when I quit smoking and started binging on chocolate). It really can take the wind out of a person. But I love the way you are handling it!!! That is awesome. No moping, but moving! You are an inspiration! Have a great treadmill session, I’m sure it missed you.

Bree