What’s inside Emmi’s head today?
Goals. Goals are in my head. What do I want to be when I grow up? Seriously, what do I want for the long haul?
1. I want to reach my healthy weight. I’m 5’6” and currently 194 lbs. According to my height and large bone structure I should be between 130-140. I would like to get there by the end of this year, but if I lose only one pound a week it will take me a little over a year from today. I’d like to lose two pounds a week but I know that my body will fight that every step of the way since the losing slows down as you keep going. I’ve done this before and have hit plateaus many times.
2. I want to be able to stay off diabetic medications forever, like I am right now. When I was first diagnosed back in 2001 with Type 2 diabetes I was at my all time high weight of 248 lbs. In a little over a year’s time I lost 78 lbs. and was at 170. Since then I regained about 40 lbs and saw 210 this past January. My sugar levels had been getting above where they should be and I was very concerned that my doctor was going to make me take meds again. Since I re-started working out and dropping weight (lost 16 lbs. since Jan. 22) my glucose readings have returned to normal. One of my biggest fears is having to go through all of the scary diabetic complications that people face when they don’t take care of themselves. Diabetes is a frightening silent killer.
3. I want to have a more constant positive outlook on life. I’ve been fighting depression for so long. I have decided to change my mind and laugh in the face of life’s curveballs. Everything happens for a reason. Sometimes it lasts for a season sometimes it sticks with you for life. Roll with it....
4. I want to be able to make good healthy decisions without a second thought. I want it to be second nature. I am the boss of me. The only person I can truly count on to take care of me is me. I am responsible for my actions and how I feel.
5. I want to find a boyfriend and, in due time, a husband that shares my values. I want to have a family. I want a man that respects me and supports my decisions. I want a partner, a friend. I want true love. I know it’s out there. I see people falling in love all the time. I want it to be my turn! My clocks ticking.....
6. I want a job that I love and can’t wait to do every day- and get paid for it! I don’t think I need to elaborate any further here.
7. I want a real house with a yard so that I can have a green house, a garden and a little dog. I love fresh herbs, vegetables, fruit and flowers. I don’t mind getting a little dirty. My condo unit that I have right now is on a third floor and too small for a doggie.
8. I want to get back in touch with my creative self. I’ve been very unmotivated lately when it comes to my art. I have a second bedroom that I converted into my studio. I have all of my beading supplies, silversmithing tools, paints and easle in there. Everything is very dusty....
That is all I can think of right now. I wanted to come up with 10 goals but 8 is ok for now. Everyone have a great weekend. I’ll see y’all on Monday. TGIF!