Hi, Ctina!
For me, it was initially about taking some control back over my life. I’d become lazy and decidedly unsocial. Once I got over the initial hump of sticking with the calorie cutting, and started exercising, people noticed my weight loss. It reinforced what I was doing, but it also shifted the focus to “how I look.” Now it’s not a bad thing to worry about how I look, I know. But actually, sometimes I feel more insecure—now that I’ve lost so much weight—than I did before. It’s like being aware that people are suddenly looking at me, whereas before I felt more invisible. At the same time, 20 years ago when I was at this size, men would look and flirt. Now all the reinforcement seems to come from people who knew me before. It’s a series of adjustments, and I have a lot of work to do on self-confidence.
How do I stick with it? Mainly I “use” exercise for a lot of different reasons: to burn off frustration at the end of the work day, to get my weekend started, to hang out with “the gang” at class, and because I have something of a responsibility to be there. I also still like it. It’s become a competition with myself as to how much stronger, leaner, fitter, healthier I can become, and not become discouraged, injured, or too exhausted along the way. I also am still chugging away at my goal, a modest size ten goal, which eighteen months ago seemed really unrealistic.