You’ll have to forgive me—I don’t have a computer at home and I can’t download the podcasts at work, so I am constantly playing catch-up when I spend the weekend at my boyfriend’s place. So the podcast I’m going to refer to is probably old news to you!
Anyhow, Scott mentioned in a podcast that when he reads letters from his listeners, he pictures them as average people. It is only when he gets a picture along with the letter that he really knows what people look like. He then went on to say that if he can picture us as average people, then we should be able to picture ourselves as average too. Maybe once we picture ourselves that way, it will be easier to achieve.
I, on the other hand, have always pictured myself as slim and attractive. I can honestly say that I am actually shocked about 75% of the time when I look in the mirror. I have been overweight almost my entire life, and yet I still don’t feel like the person I see is who I actually am. I am not the heavy, frumpy, lazy girl eating Reese’s Peanut Butter Eggs (damn you, Easter!). I am the active, fit, attractive girl who gets her 5 servings of fruits and vegetables every day without even thinking about it. But that’s only in my head.
Then I realized that it’s not enough for me to see myself as the fit, healthy girl. I have to FEEL like the fit, healthy girl. I have to LIVE like the fit, healthy girl. Then I will be able to BE the fit, healthy girl.
I have made some progress since hearing that podcast. I went to the gym on Saturday for the first time in almost two years. I didn’t have time for the gym yesterday, so I jogged around my neighborhood instead. I’m going straight to the gym after work today. I’m working exercise into my daily routine, and I’m paying attention to how much I eat. I still don’t feel like the girl I know I should be, but I do feel like I’m getting closer to her.
So, here is my (very wordy!) introduction. My name is Megan. I am 22 years old. I am 5’2” and weigh 155 pounds. But don’t get too comfortable with this version of me, because version 2.0 is coming out before you know it.
